Healing Self-Image: The Joy of Overcoming

It took a lot for Lizzie to overcome the damage bullies caused her in middle school. She persevered, God protected her, and now she lives in overcoming joy!

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I'm Lizzie. When I was in middle school, I really started struggling with my self-image and self-worth and self-love, and it didn't help that I was bullied. By the time I started high school, I was so deep in the depression and self-loathing that I really exercised on the thoughts of self-harming, and I had a plan. And every time I really thought about carrying through, that quiet voice would suddenly be at the forefront telling me, ending your life would end your suffering, but that would give your family more. And I couldn't bring myself to carry through with the plans I had. I remember telling God, if all I'm going to be going through is all this pain, all this suffering, then there's no point in going on.

I have since repaired the relationship I have with myself. Meeting my husband helped me a lot with that. He has been very patient with me and very loving. He reminds me on a daily basis of how much he loves me, and if he loves me that much, it's almost mind-boggling to imagine just how much God loves me. A verse that I really hang on to, and my favorite verse in the entire Bible, funny enough, was not my favorite verse at first. Verses 2 and 3 consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, when facing trials of many kinds, but you know the testing of your faith produces perseverance. It made me really angry when I found out that God loves me.

When I first heard that, like, I was bullied, and I had thoughts of suicide and self-harming, whereas the joy in that, looking back on it and healing from it, the joy is I didn't give in to those thoughts. I did not even think about self-harming. It's coming out on top, and God using those circumstances to not only help you, but to help you become a better person, but to build others up in a similar situation. I have been able to replace that grief and even self-loathing with joy and love and compassion. I am who I am because of God's love and mercy and patience.